They run with their own mind.
They say we can control them but I don't think we can. Well not all of them, some of them appear when you least expect it. They make you think about things that might help you. But they will also bring thoughts you want to avoid.
Everyone has different ways of coping with their thoughts, some are good, some are bad. We see all of the way bad thoughts are handled. We possibly see them on TV or in the actions of those around us. Some of these actions effect everyone around u. And they can destroy what you had set up in your life.
Escaping the thoughts that run through the mind can be almost impossible. The memories that have to be chased away have either effect. They never leave u and haunt you for the rest of you living life. Or it be the opposite. You block it, burn it, make sure you never have anything to do with that memory again.
I don't want memories that will torment me, I don't want to know what would happen to me. to be surrounded by happy
SmilesIt comes for easily now.
Its like second again. I can pull a smile out of nowhere and know that it is a genuine one.
There are still those around me where life is not the greatest. And I hope for that to chance.
But I'm glad that I am me again, for it means that I can try to help those round me who need me.
Frowns come as easy as smiles, but the smiles chance the smiles away. Which is lovely to hear and beautiful to see (although I don't rly think im beautiful lol).
I can now say 'I'm okay' knowing that it is true... well truer then it has been for the last month.
I'm returning to my personal 'normal' and I am glad
All of my friends have helped
And so the smiles have returned.
Airi's possible thoughtsHe has forgotten me.
I sat at the table holding a pillow to my chest as I think of the night at the beach, the night I realised my true feelings for him. Aram, you idiot, how could you forget me? At the thought of his name his smile flashes in front of my eyes, but soon it changes to the look he gave me only yesterday. Mariabel's smug smile replaced Aram's face and anger filled me. It was Mariabel's fault, Mariabel and that box she gave Aram.
At his name his face filled me mind.
'Hello?' his voice filled the room, but it was a blank voice, held none of the joy that it used to.
'I'm in the dining room' I tell him and I try to hide the sadness from my face.
He still goes to school, thinking he is learning about my world. He can't return home without the maidens kiss. But he won't come to me looking for that kiss, because to him I am only a commoner and the one looking after him. I have to get him to remember, I think as I watch him put his bag on the ground. He has a blank expression, it