A new friendI sit in wonder as I watch the world around me. I see love and heartache, gain and loss, friendship and enemies, and it's all truly amazing. If only it feels like I belong. I feel like an outsider. I never seem to belong, never seem to fit in, and never seem to be seen. It's an interesting feeling, one that I'm used to, but not one I enjoy. I want to be seen, by whom I don't know. All I know is that I'm sick of being invisible. I watch as the world progresses but I seem to stay the same. I want to be more, I want to be better and I want to change.
'Throw me the ball!' The fun continues around me. Is it my own fault that I'm excluded? Or is it their fault or is it a mix of the two? I imagine that is the answer, a never ending cycle that I can't see changing. 'Oi! Chuck us the ball,' the voice calls to me. I nod and get the ball for them. I have nothing better to do, and I won't be the ruin of their fun. I was surprised to hear the word 'thanks' thrown in my direction as the ball s
Angel Wings - 7~_~_~_~_~ MATHEW'S POV ~_~_~_~_~
What in the world just happened? I thought as I looked down at Julia who had just passed out at my feet.
I turned to look outside the door to the people who were just visible over the hill. I could tell that they had been looking for her, I didn't know why but I knew I would help keep her safe.
Where are these thoughts coming from? I thought as I picked up the girl that was at my feet. She was lighter then I imagined. She looked well built and like she did lots of exercise. But she was even lighter than some of my younger brothers.
'Who is that sweetheart?' my earth mother, Anna asked when she walked out the kitchen to see the girl in my arms.
'She is from school, I think she was running from someone' I replied in my blank emotionless voice.
My mother's smile faltered, she hated seeing others in trouble, she also didn't like my toneless voice.
'Do you think she will be alright? She looks so exhausted!' my mother came over to look at the
This is my realityI see her everyday, yet I cannot approach her. I am forbidden to go near her, to make myself known, to show her any of the feelings that I have had for her, will have to her forever had for her. I can only wait, I must wait, she must come to me. I must be patient I know she will come.
She will come wont she?
I cannot think of anything else, she must come, she has come before, always before. The curse will repeat, always repeat, never change, never defer, never get and easier, only harder.
I want to talk to her.
What can I do? I cannot make an approach. I will scare her for sure, my knowledge of her will be terrifying I couldn't do that, I can't do that. What am I thinking, I can't get close to her no mater what I try. I try to follow behind her, keep her safe. But I am forbidden, she must follow me, she has to come to me.
Why did this have to happen?
She will come wont she? I could not bare to see her follow another, but it will happen it always happens. And I can't change