my healing heart

The pain is fading which is a relief

The cause is clear but is still hard to fix

The antidote has change which is brilliant for me,
But I still wish that something that I have felt could have gotten through, it seems like that will be an impossibility. This is because of many things, for one. He is to stupid to realise what any possible effect it could have on me and it seems that it no longer matters. He's pissed at me but I couldn't care.
Although the reason he is angry with me is something I wish I could change.

I hurt someone close to us both. I didn't know and no one told me. well not until it was to late. She knows my pain and it kinda became her own. It annoyed him because I made her cry. I hurt her when I didn't know and I regret that.
But the idiot doesn't know... doesn't know the true reason behind those tears. I do... I know because I am the cause. I know everything while he will forever remain in the dark...

Why you might ask??

Simple.

She cant hurt him... they are in love... and I cant hurt her. I cant bear it. And we both agree.. that it would do nothing... it would only bring another into the pain we feel. It would bring no good, no relief for the pain that we both feel. But we know the pain and can deal with it our selfs. No one needs to be dragged down with us.

The pain is fading, which is nice to feel.
But it has also changed from what I can feel. Its different because it has now mixed with rage. A rage that won't be tamed or released. Which doesn't bother me why you may ask? Well I cant hurt the person I know it will affect. Ive hurt them enough so ill keep it all locked away.

No one will know because its mine to bear but at least I know that there are people that care for me and will always be there. I need them now more then I ever thought. Now I just need someone who can make me whole again